
What do you do with an anxious day? One of those where you just feel a sense of doom, that there is no point starting, that you should just stay home. I have these often when I have prepared a long time for an event and have a lot invested in it. I have read quite a bit about the mental aspects of cycling, and would recommend reading the series of articles in pezcyclingnews by Marvin Zauderer-
http://www.pezcyclingnews.com/default.asp?pg=fullstory&id=5644 . These make some sense and really add something to your training. I have also read biographies of both Chris Hoy and Brad Wiggins in recent months, in which there is discussion of how the British team employ a psychiatrist, Steve Peters to maximise the performance of the team. One of the things that Wiggins relates is taking all of the negative thoughts that you have and addressing them for a short, defined period of time, so you don't have to carry them around with you. What follows is the process I went through on the day of the pursuit at the Australian Master's Championships prior to heading to the stadium. I first wrote down all my negative thoughts, then addressed them one by one.
Australian Master's Track- Pursuit Day 2/4/09
I'm not having a good meet.
I'm not as fit as I could be.
My mind is not in it.
My start is too slow.
I can't hold the pace to the end.
I feel anxious and a bit sick.
The competition is too fast.
I feel nervous riding double discs.
My TT was what it sould have been- a hit out to get used to the track. The time was irrelevant.
I am fit and strong enough to have done a fastest time in the TT and pursuit one week ago.
I am here, focusing right now and can give it 100% today.
My start is solid and fast enough for the pursuit. I don't need it any faster.
The end will hurt but my form is good and I can give the bit extra in competition. I will hold it.
The anxiety is my adrenaline, which will make me faster, and the sick feeling in my stomach is just part of it. It means this race is important and I am giving it my all.
There are 6 riders in M2 and on my day, I can challenge the best of them. I can go sub 3.40.
I have ridden double discs in training, racing and starts and can ride them well. They are part of my bike and I control it.
At the start I will be as ready as I can be. The bike will be right. I will be warmed up. I will have the right gear on. I will race well.
I should say that I didn't do the event as well as I might have, but the reasons for that are another story.
Just a little peek into my tortured soul...